I’m not sure what God is stirring up in my heart and soul, but I sense the coming of something anew in my life. I’m currently experiencing unrest in my spirit and I realize that until I sit still and allow God to speak to my heart, I will not be granted peace. That’s the understanding me and my Father have. I know what I experienced at the Women’s Retreat is responsible for my current unrest. The soul stirring that God has begun which is causing uncontainable love in my heart, I’m fighting desperately to hold on to. I want it to remain as long as possible. The unsettled feeling is my spirit mourning the possibility of losing its affect. This gives me cause to believe that this may be the beginning of something really big!
Throughout the day I’ve felt heavy hearted; I’ve had a feeling of emptiness and fullness simultaneously. How can this be, empty and full coexisting? Simply put, I’m feeling full because of the joy and love I received from the women this weekend. I’m also encountering separation anxiety. I’m missing all the women terribly. I’m concerned about their well being. There are four in particular that my heart cries for. As my emotions are in turmoil, I believe God is working through Jeff by giving him insight on how to best support me during this time. Without mentioning too much to Jeffrey about what I was feeling, he asked me when I was going to get serious about my passion for ministering to women who are hurting and needing the healing power of our Lord. I responded I am serious. He then said when are you going to invest more time to it? I responded with silence.
Without saying another word he proceeded to set up a website for me. He innocently asked, do you have a name for your ministry? I responded without hesitation, “Tears of a Daughter”. This title has been on my heart for a very long time. It captures the essence of my personal brokenness, the tears of a daughter yearning for her mother’s love, and the tears of a daughter who is grateful for the love of her Heavenly Father.
The women who attended the retreat had a mountaintop experience, much like Moses. The Bible says he returned from the mountain with white hair, wide eyed and speechless. When you have been in the presence of the Most High there are no words that can possibly explain the experience. It is difficult for you to wrap your brain around what happened, let alone attempt to describe to someone who was not present. That is why those of us who shared time together that weekend feel a kinship and bond. We know what we went through together was special. We now have the same reference point to pull from; we have had our hearts and lives forever changed together, and we understand some things without having to explain. For instance, when we say something is a “monkey bread” experience. After one of the services, Jeff commented that the men looked as though they were wondering what has gotten into the women? I responded, Jesus.
I commit this website for the encouragement and support of women who are hurting. I pray that as I travel encouraging women in their personal Christian walk, this site will serve as a resource in assisting you in that journey. I’m confident that God created me to be a servant to His daughters. It has always been my drive, desire, and passion. My most joyous times are when I am in the presence of my sisters and my Lord. I don’t know what this all means; I don’t know where it is leading me, and I definitely don’t have a clear plan. What I do know for sure is that God is leading. With that being said, I will patiently wait on Him to reveal His plan. My heart says I’m your daughter Lord, I hear your voice and I will follow. I will trust my past to God’s mercy, my present to His love, and my future to His providence. I lovingly invite you to take this journey with me.